Te largas sin decir adiós, como arrebatado por la muerte. No dejas un rastro, una huella, no has dejado siquiera que escuche tu llanto. Por qué no te detienes un momento para hablarme con tu cuerpo enlazado con el mío. Quiero oír de los campos de flores, quiero impregnarme de esos olores, envolverme en tus manos. Dame tus besos contra el cielo. Dame algo de tiempo para contarte sólo uno de mis sueños. Créeme que me gusta mirar las estrellas y leer poemas. Detente de una vez que es hora de hacer el amor, porque me gusta tu piel suave, tus ojos tristes.

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mi abuelita pasó su juventud bailando el charlestón.

tengo 40 años y trato de cumplir como sea mi palabra
mis palabras son promesas, y las promesas se cumplen
sino prefiero quedarme muda.

loneliness is love

Chögyam Trungpa Rinpoche on desolation, relationships and loneliness as consort

an exiled Tibetan Buddhist monk and a dog walk in Dharmsala, India by Altaf Qadri

Student: I'd like to ask a question about loneliness and love. In my experience, the kind of love where two people try to be together in order to protect themselves from loneliness hasn't worked out too well. When you come in contact with loneliness, it seems to destroy a lot of things you try to pull off in trying to build up security. But can there be love between two people while they continue to try to work with the loneliness?

Trungpa Rinpoche: That's an interesting question. I don't think anybody can fall in love unless they feel lonely. People can't fall in love unless they know they are lonely and are separate individuals. If by some strange misunderstanding, you think you are the other person already, then there's no one for you to fall in love with. It doesn't work that way. The whole idea of union is that of two being together. One and one together make union. If there's just one, you can't call that union. Zero is not union, one is not union, but two is union. So I think in love it is the desolateness that inspires the warmth. The more you feel a sense of desolation, the more warmth you feel at the same time. You can't feel the warmth of the house unless it's cold outside. The colder it is outside, the cozier it is at home.

Student: What would be the difference between the relationship between lovers and the general relationship you have with the sangha as a whole, which is a whole bunch of people feeling desolateness to different degrees?

Trungpa Rimpoche: The two people have a similarity in their type of loneliness. One particular person reminds another more of his or her own loneliness. You feel that your partner, in seeing you, feels more lonely. Whereas with the sangha, it's more a matter of equal shares. There's all-pervasive loneliness, ubiquitous loneliness, happening all over the place.

(frente a mi manifiesto deseo de encontrar a un hombre solo, un amigo me dijo "ándate al Tibet a buscar a un monje mejor será"... me reí, luego pensé que tenía razón... más tarde empecé a estudiar budismo tibetano, en fin).